I'm rather stressed out for sec 3. Though I don't take physics, am not in 3A. But yeah, I'm still stressed. Kind of because I work slightly harder la.

Band is.. making me rather sad.

Like I'm not a good player for sure. But I'm not a bad player in junior band la.
How I hope I was the lousiest.
In the past, though Rachel constantly stared at me, shout at me, scolded me, she meant well. And I improved alot in terms of technique la. And she continued to teach me with a softer approach.

Yesterday we had tutor. Flutes.
I felt like a failure.

Sure I knew all my scales except A. But could I play in the first try second try? No. I kept playing E instead of Eb. It was quite okay, considering that I just learnt it.
But didn't miss chan ask us to learn the scales a long time ago? I had such a long time to learn it. Why did I wait for the tutor to ask us to learn all our scales, then get started?
Okay I kind of started a long time ago. But it was always on paper and it was really hard for me to rmb. Haiya. But still, if I took more time to practise. This won't happen.

Yes. Yesterday tutor.
It was a disappointment.
The tutor asked us to play the scales. And halfway through some scales. I realised I was playing alone. And I played like one wrong note for some scales. Like. So the tutor kind of made sure that at least one person could play the whole scale. before he moved on to the next. And then, we played and played till i was dizzy and for A major scale. i just couldnt get it. He stopped us. And went off.

You know when I looked around and saw some people standing there and doing nth. I felt...

I have no idea what feeling this is la. Maybe with siwei and xiaojie gone for obs, I actually experienced being a senior. More of a hopeless senior.

In sec 1 sec 2. The seniors can just block my sound la. Even if I accidentally played Aflat instead of G. I could just go down and play the rest correctly.
I felt really. I felt like I was all alone you know. The truth is, there isn't daniel, rachel, sharlene, xiaohui wanwen. And very soon, there wouldn't be siwei or xiaojie.

I was crying rather badly while I was telling Isa about it.

In sec 1, I was sad cause I wasn't good enough as a sec 1.
In sec 2, I was sad cause I couldn't play as good as the seniors. Technique was horrible.
In sec 3,
I miss the seniors. So what if i can play better than i could play as a sec 2? Siwei's right. I'm just playing like a sec 2 player.

And then after tutor, I went back bandroom.
I was really discouraged.
I guess I forgot that I was no longer with the year 4s and 5s. I was no longer in a place filled with seniors. I was the senior.

I'm quite disappointed in the band.
And even more disappointed with myself.

Wow my eyebags are really getting worse.
:( :( :(

School has been alot better than I expected. WOOO! hahaha.
Apparently, there's alot of nice people.
Super nice lor. SUPER WHOOPER DUPER NICE LA. oh man.

And I learnt my lesson 'NEVER JUDGE'. Really.
For example, zhiwei is not that innocent. :X
HAHAHA!

And I kinda like how people compliment each other. Complimenting is so much better than insulting hahaa.

And O level results came out. Hope the o level students are fine. :)

I'M A BALLERINAAAAA! WOOOOOO!

:) 2L'09. 3K'10.

I like how things are going. The homework quite alot la. But, the people are really nice.
Hmmmm. I think for a start 3K is super good. hahaha. (HAH! WE HAVE A CLASS BLOG!)
hahaha. I kind of miss 2L though. But like what I said in sec 2, a change might be good for me too. teehee.