Waiting for gina to complete her job in geog. woopie!

Hmmm. Photos right? k la. next post? hahaha.

Anyway... Today's last day of school. I'm happy. :D
I'm planning my whole june holidays so it would be meaningful and fun. :)
It's 1.20 am and STUPID GINA doesnt want me to sleep. boohoo.

Anyway... I love BAND TODAYYY! Was so fun. Olympic thinga majinga was confusing cause nobody guided me through and I didnt find the song familar at all... Siwei was turning to me and looking all confused cause he found it very familiar.. OKAAAY.

Anyway. For today's band. Cause sharlene and rachel had journalism, xiaohui had sc and wanwen had to take sec 1s... we had no sec 4s!
How did I feel... I felt like, I had to be alot more independent. No rachel to STARE ME DOWN! HAHAHA! Nahh. she doesnt look at me evilly anymore. I KINDA miss those moments.

Anyway. So ya. I know that I improved. But well... I could tell that I was like very unsure and playing wrong parts here and there. But it's kinda cause I didnt count. Ya. Like. I will count. Then all of a sudden miss one beat or sth come in wrong. Something between those lines. But I'm still proud of myself.

For dream city right... I'm even prouder... :D
The thing is right. Is that when I first joined band, I had to play flute 1. Aiya. Not enough scores. It was a one day thing la. how i hope that im in flute 1 now. ANYWAY. So I had to play D. Then siwei showed me the fingering. Then miss chan made me play alone. and cause i was so nervous i fumbled everything right, she said I was lazy. Felt sad okaaaay.

But now, about 1 year later (since i joined main band when it was august), I could play everything. Even the running notes. Then like a couple of times people got lost la. But I still heard myself playing. and that self satisfaction is very nice. Honestly. I LUBBB MEE! haha.

Just a few days ago. Or one week ago I was emoing about not being able to play celebrate. And I cried la. I felt so completely useless. Something like how I felt when I was sec 1. Can you imagine me not being able to play just a C? high C? IT'S NOT EVEN HIGH HIGH C LA. hahaha. that one i can pitch too! ;)

I'm feeling extremely gross and sticky cause I didnt bathe this morning. HEHEHE. Cause I bathed last night. OH! It's 130am. STUPID GINA!

Okaaaay. Anyway. I think that Siwei is right. We do have our down periods in band. Like, there are bound to be times where we suddenly can't play. Or that we suddenly think that we need alot more improving. ya! But you'll be able to play better after that too. hahaha...

I can't wait for Monday. hehehe. Miss zeng rocks my socks. HEHE! :D

Oh man I'm so sticky. And Gina is still doing. Wah sian eh. OH! Im 167.1. HEHE! Had my health check up today. AND I THINK THAT THE WEIGHT IS SO NOT ACCURATE LA! COME ON! I ate first lor. :(

Anyway. Let's go back to band.
I'm feeling quite happy about band. It's not like I have any very good friends inside. It's not like my section is very bonded. It's not like I'm a very good player.
I have no idea why. But, it's like, I suddenly feel that band is a very peaceful place. Maybe It's cause the people are really nice. I dunno. But I really love it.

And I have to continue typing until Gina FINALLY hands her part of the report to me.

12345! HIGH FIVE! HAHA! I got A 1 A 2 B 3 B4 C5 and sth else. :D I didnt get high la. But cannot reveal. If not will reveal my score.

I felt quite sad after band. it's like. my section mates will ask 'how much u get'. You know, normal questions like that? And I just smiled and said 'not good'. Hahahaa. I have a really smart section. ;)

I dont really like it when people talk bout grades. It's like, even when I did rather well in CA1, I didnt really tell like, the whole world about it. I think I just dont like talking bout grades. You hurt people either way.
If you get good grades, and your friend gets not as good, you hurt his/her feelings.
If you get poor grades and you're asked about it you wont feel good too.
So like, ya. :D I'm a very sensitive person.

Gina finishing. WHOOOO! woopie!
Hmmm. What was my sec one dream...?
I think I hoped for alot of things. Like... I wont be scared in band or people wont hate me in band..

I'm probably booked for the whole of week 1. :D
TEEHEE!