TOOT! I have to study really hard la. Hah. But not doing so. Nevermind. Anyway. This yr is most likely to be the "easy" yr. So.... have to be extra careful. And every half mark counts!!!!

Hahaha. I got a fight with cindy. Not really a fight. I just somehow feel that she hates me. I mean. I tried to talk to her. Then she walk away. And she thinks that I always make her wrong. Haix... The other time I also had a fight with her.

Somehow. I feel that everything happenned cause of two idiots. ya. maybe two of them are my friends, but they really caused everything to happen....

Jaslyn told me not to care as PSLE is coming and everyone would not care about anything after p6. Which is true. And I really hope that I can be friends with cindy again.

I mean.... because of her and some other things.... I cried under the table for forty min in maths lesson. A good thing not everyone realised. Cause they're concentrating on their work. and... one of the reasons why I cried is that I don't want to lose her as a friend.

Some people told me that she's not worth having as a friend. Maybe they think so la. But I certainly don't.

Nevermind... I think I should not think so much bout it. Until after PSLE. Alot of things happened lately.

STRIVE HARD FOR PSLE!

Ok.... I'm in the computer lab and am freezing to death! That's why i'm typing so damn slow. Oh ya. A question for u guys.

Question : Who is the bear in 6-7 that hugs every boy it sees?

Answer : MERVIN!!!!!!!!!!!

Hahaha. Scary.... Now he's behind me. AHHHH!!!! he's gonna hug someone soon. And he's flirting with KESHANT! WOOHOO!!!!!

I have been thinking about this for a while. Why must people hate? Sometimes it really makes me confused. I used to do so. Hate here hate there. But I soon realised it's more difficult to hate than to like. U'll just lose more friends.

You see.... if u hate someone, there's tons of bad things u can say about them. But if a person were your fren, you wouldn't waste ur time critisising that person right?

Ok.... I used to hate this person alot. And critisise here. ALOT! But.... although she's damn irritating, she's not that bad la.

I used to be enemies with cindy. Writing evil stuff at her. Although it was my fault for misunderstanding her, everybody believed me. =D. Except for her good good fren la. But now, we're all friends!!!

Well now.... pretty much everybody hates me. =D. But I dun care la. =D. They said untrue stuff about me. And did alot of things. Kinda weird la.

Actually, I have this blog is cause i had a fight with cindy, and I wanted to vent all my anger by writing stuff on my blog. It was supposed to be a private blog. But tell one person then spread spread spread. Then liddat lor.

If someone hates u, they sure have a reason to do so. So, maybe u can change. And show them that u're not as bad as they think la. =D

Jaslyn went to the beach with her class to the beach to collect litter today. She told me that she saw a dead cat. In the middle of the beach. Scary.

And another cat. In a trasparent plastic bag. And the plastic bag was tied up. And the cat looked like it was stuggling when it was gonna drown to death.

She also said that turtles eat plastic bags cause they thought they were jelly fishes. And that hermit crabs use bottle caps as their shells as there were no shells. Cause humans think that shells look nice and just pick them up. And they are decreasing la.

Oh ya. If u wanna check in some stuff. Go to http://blackle.com/ instead of google. Cause it will save energy. And DO NOT break your styrofoam cause it will cause CFC (chloroflurorocarbon). All those animals out there are gonna be extinct if we continue doing this. So... don't litter. It really will cause alot of stuff to happen.

Think of all those animals. And try to save them. Even saving one of those animals count.
Remember. DON'T LITTER!!!!!

18 more days till PSLE. Which means I have less than 3 weeks to study. And if i chiong. I may just make it to my desired score. Oh ya. I got 351/400 for my prelims. And it's 259.5/300 la. Which means, I still have to study more!!! If I want to get into a good school.

Oh ya. Jaslyn told me that if you get dunno what school and get into pioneer sec, pioneer sec will give u three thousand dollars. At least that's for last yr la. Hahaha.

Yesterdae was fun. LOL. FUN!!!! Ok... nt gonna sae why...
Ooooh. Maybe I'm gonna post my class photo. With my weird face la. =D
But.... MAYBE onli. And if my classmates dun wan then i'm not gonna post!!!!

Hope that I will get good grades for my PSLE. Then, I can prove to everybody that I'm not as bad as they think!!!!!

Need to improve my english and science. If not. DIE!!!!

Doing lead homework now.... GTG!!!!
BYE~~~

Ok.... holidays..... GREAT~~~

Holidays are fun. But it also means less play more study. =(
It seems like I can't study there few days for some reasons...
I look at the homework, stare at it, and just take up my hp and play some stupid games.

Studying just makes me feel dizzy and makes me have a headache. I am 100% sure that i won't get good grades for Psle la..... I would most likely get a 240/300 for my PSLE. And that sucks. Some people go up to me and say that I'm bound to get 270+++ since my sisters can do that too. But I just cannot la.

There was once when I really studied. Actually, I didn't really. But it's counted la. I got like damn good for my Sa2. Then, I was still worst than them. Great...
They always get at least top 5. At least for Eileen la.
The worst Jaslyn got was like 15th in class?
And guess what. The worst I got was 27th? Or worst.

It's a good thing that I've improved. Not in results. But the way I study. Well... when I was studying last time, I would walk around the house and do lots of stuff and could be on the same question for the whole day. But now, at least i can do slightly more la and I can sit down and do my work.

But. The problem is that I get distracted easily and i constantly need people to push me just to go on. I cannot go auto-pilot. =D

Ok... the problem is that Psle is less that a month's time and I KNOW that some people have high expectations on me.

I have 2 choices.
1) Continue to slack
2) Work hard till I die

I have another problem la. And it's that I have no goals in life. Eileen knows that she wants to go into RV and Jaslyn knows that she wants to go into RGS since she was p5. But up till now, I still haven't made my decision.
Ok.... Eileen wants to be a psychiatrist and Jaslyn wants to be a professor. But me? "dunno...."

You see the difference?!?!?! People compare me between my siblings. And I know that I would never be better than them la. In whatever I do.

95/100 for english , 95/100 for chinese , 95/100 for science and a 100/100 for maths is considered only a good.
It's a good thing that my family has set lower expectations on me. Hahaha.

In the past, I would ask them "what is stress?" and I would tell myself that I would never have that. But I was wrong.

Now, I'm experiencing LOADS and LOADS of them. Having headaches almost everytime.

Ok..... everyday after school, I come back home, eat my lunch and do my things. Then, I just throw myself into bed or listen to some songs while doing sth stupid.

Wah... I found out sth... Homework given by my tutor and teachers are surrounding me. And I just do one question and sleep. Lol.

I don't usually hide my feelings. Cause I can't keep secrets from my friends.
When I'm feeling down, I will just shuddup for the whole day and will get loads of phone calls from my closest friends asking me what happenned. But if I'm in a good mood, I will practically go crazy la.

Friends leave you. For sure. I used to be friends with this certain person but now, she treats me as her enemy cause of a boy. Didn't know what I did wrong. I was also good friends with this other girl, but now, she doesn't even talk to me.

Hahaha. The good thing is that I still have a GREAT family and GREAT friends!!!! So.... I shouldn't be disappointed or stressed over such little things. I still have a life you know....

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